Hyacinth greeted Erik in the kitchen with a grin and a request for some violin when he was done with breakfast. Something really annoying. Perhaps scales or âTwinkle, Twinkle, Little Star.â
This made Erik suspicious.
He set his empty bowl on the counter without investigating the cereal supply in the pantry and returned to the bedroom, frowning.
His uncle usually slept in on Sigurdâs Day, and heâd been up late the night before, but if Hyacinth was needling him like that, Uncle Mordecai might be sad or something. Hyacinth thought he was stupid for getting sad about things and she liked to tease him about it, which Erik could never quite fathom.
He didnât hear crying on the other side of the door. He peeked in carefully and there appeared to be sleeping going on, but it was hard to tell with his uncle. There was enough light showing around the curtain for him to navigate the room and he shut the door behind him.
There was a groan from the pile of blankets in the bed.
âUncle?â said Erik. âAre you⊠okay?â
Even half-conscious, Mordecai knew that another groan was in no way an option, nor was any coughing, although a little of that was customary upon waking. Not with Erikâs voice all concerned like that.
With effort, he stifled the tickle in his throat and sat up. With similar effort, he attempted a smile. âIâm all right, dear one.â And now he drew out a tissue and allowed the cough. âI just, um, you know, I had a late night last night. Annâs friends.â
âJust⊠tired?â Erik asked. It didnât look like just tired. He sounded sick.
âWell⊠A little tired.â He sighed and hung his head. âThey figured out they could get me to drink champagne if they asked for music I hated and they kept doing it. Like Hyacinth on fake Yule.â
Erik experienced visible relief, even in the dim room. âYouâre drunk?â
Mordecai sighed again. âNo, not now. This is the other side of it. My head is killing me and I feel like Iâve been licking a movie theatre carpet all night.â
âUck,â said Erik. All flooring at movie theatres was disgusting. Something about spilled sodas and anonymity.
âBut Iâm not sick, and it isnât forever. I just need some sleep, then itâs aspirin and orange juice, like a cold.â
âWill you be okay tonight?â
âYes.â Mordecai tilted his head aside and twisted the tissue in his hands. âIs it all right⊠They wanted me to come back and play again tonight. Itâs not until late, I can still make dinner. But itâs not like an emergency. Nobody cancelled, they have a band, they just liked me.â
âAre they gonna pay you?â Erik asked.
Mordecai snickered. âYeah. Time and tips.â
âThatâs pretty good,â Erik said.
His uncle had explained the concept of gigs and cheques and not just getting paid if people liked the music but getting paid extra if people liked the music, in the context of the previous nightâs engagement. Erik thought it sounded like a pretty sweet deal. He was definitely going to grow up and get paid like that. He needed to learn some wedding music. Like⊠Billy Idol?
âBut, I mean,â said Mordecai, âIâd be like this again tomorrow. And I might be kind of silly tonight. Or stupid. If you donât want to see me like that, or if you donât want me to be like thatâŠâ
âI think itâs not scary,â Erik said, as he considered it. Either someone invisible had given him a hint about that or it was just that obvious what his uncle was worried about. Sometimes it was hard to tell the difference. âI know why it is, and itâs not from being sick or hurt. Itâs just so you donât care as much about the music and stuff.â He frowned. âDo you not like it when people make you do that because youâll be hurt like this later?â
His uncle got pretty mad at Hyacinth on fake Yule, but it wasnât like he was scared, just annoyed about all the piano music, and it seemed like liquor didnât taste very good. He drank it like medicine. Medicine for hating stuff less.
Mordecai shook his head, then he winced and touched it gingerly with a hand. âNo. I donât mind this so much, and itâs sort of fun when itâs happening, but⊠I guess I donât like it because I think I shouldnât. Itâs not very responsible.â
âYouâre responsible too much,â Erik said. âYou should drink more.â
Mordecai couldnât stifle a laugh, even though it hurt his head. âItâs sort of cheating, dear one. If Iâm going to be responsible less, I have to come up with a way to do it with no headache or carpet mouth.â
âYeah, I guess,â Erik allowed. âAuntie Hyacinth wanted me to play violin, but Iâm not going to.â
âThatâs very kind of you.â Mordecai added a comma, and a mental note: And I am going to remember that the next time she is hungover for any reason. âWill you try to be extra quiet when Milo gets home?â he said. âHe needs to sleep, too, and heâs got less time for it.â
Erik nodded. âUh-huh. Can I go to the movies later?â Being quiet around the house could get kind of annoying.
âIf you want to. Ask Hyacinth to give you some money out of the glass jar.â
Erik left the bedroom quietly and shut the door. He scolded Hyacinth before collecting his cereal bowl, âYouâre mean sometimes and it isnât⊠funny.â
She just laughed at him.
âââ
When Milo came home at one, looking dazed and ragged, Erik had been in the kitchen finishing a sandwich with Maggieâs company. Quietly. He had explained very sternly about the quiet, but for some reason Maggie seemed to think it was funny too. Heâd clapped a hand over her mouth to get her to quit with the laughing, and sheâd let him without consequences, but she kept snickering and grinning all through lunch.
And suggesting fun activities along with Hyacinth, like handball and a coffee can drum.
But when Milo wandered in and then wandered back out with a glass of water, Hyacinth said, âOkay, seriously, you two. Let him sleep.â
Now Maggie was back upstairs for lessons, which were not usually loud. After brief consideration, Erik decided not to avail himself of the movie option yet. It was kind of lonesome doing the movies solo.
He decided to avail himself of the playspace on the front porch instead. It was nicer than the alley, and if Soup happened by, maybe then they could hit up the theatre. Or maybe heâd swing by school later and see if he could pick up anyone friendly from there.
His soldiers and his elephant were still in the bedroom, but the crayons were in the kitchen. He took them and a few sheets of random-coloured paper from the lidless cardboard box on the bookshelf.
He had selected a yellow sheet and not quite finished plotting a scene yet (What do Annâs married friends look like?) when the young brown man whose gift of comedic timing and paint cans Erik instantly recalled poked his head over the wall.
He was not wearing the long coat this time, which Erik found disappointing. But he was holding a small white box which might prove amusing. It was dripping something green.
Paint? thought Erik, glancing from the man to the box with a grin. Did you put paint in a box for some reason?
âErik?â the man said. He lifted the box. âIs it okay?â
Well, it sure doesnât look okay, Erik thought. It kind of looked like an emergency, but not a serious or painful one. He nodded, smiling. âDo you want Auntie Hyacinth?â
âNo,â the man said quickly. âIt isnât⊠Iâm notâŠâ He had come around to the plywood board which served as a gate, and which he had experienced considerable difficulty with before. He considered it, and then his green-splattered hands, with a pained expression.
Erik thought about reminding him that he could just kick it over⊠Then he didnât. Man, this was gonna be greatâŠ
He had decided to climb over the low place in the wall again, but the dripping box added a complication. The paint cans were one to a hand and he could set them against things and balance with them. (He could also have put them down, but that did not occur until days later.) The box required both hands and if he got up to anything complicated with it, it was going to spill.
He clutched it against his chest, which did indeed engender a cascade of sticky green substance down the front of his white shirt (Oh, no, Momâs gonna be pissedâŠ) and, after sitting uncomfortably on the crumbling edge of the wall, he swung both legs over and stood up.
Erik was by this point within touching distance, and this apparent teleportation caused John Green-Tara to cry out and sit down on the wall again.
Erik caught him by the arm. âDonât fall.â
âNo, no,â John said. âItâs all right. I, umâŠâ He stood up again and awkwardly twisted away from Erik. âIâll get you messy. Youâll be in trouble withâŠâ Another pained expression. âYour⊠parents?â
Erik absorbed the fact that sometimes other people slowed down when they were upset, too, with faint amusement. He shook his head. âI have an uncle.â
âYeah,â John said. âAhâŠâ He glanced at the box. âErik, do you like ice cream?â
âYeah.â
John let go a quick sigh and managed a smile, but it faded. âUm, what kind do you like?â
This was a complication that probably should have occurred to him hours ago, along with the difficulties of hiding outside a house holding a carton of ice cream on a summer afternoon and waiting for someone safe to come out. He had almost grabbed Milo aside, but heâd smartened up fast enough to remember Milo would hate that.
âOh, I like, uh, spumoni,â Erik said, nodding. He liked it enough that he had a little bit of difficulty talking about it, but he hoped not enough to notice. âThatâs three different kinds in one⊠scoop and itâs got nuts and, ah, cherries like a sundae. But they donât⊠ever have that. Rainbow sherbet is good, and Neapolitan is okay. And, umâŠâ He eyed the dripping green substance, and the white box, which was familiar at this distance. âPistachio is okay. Thatâs in spumoni.â
âUh,â John said. After some more pained thinking (it looked a little like Maggie trying to do a lot of math, but way slower) he handed Erik the dripping box. It was mushy and practically all liquid at this point. âI like this kind,â he said. He vaulted back over the wall and took off.
Erik watched after him for a moment, then considered the box. Green Tea was handwritten on the folded top in tangled black crayon.
Thatâs an ice cream? Erik thought.
And, an instant later: What the heck am I supposed to do with it?
It didnât seem like eating â or drinking â it was a good idea. Nor did carrying a dripping box through the front room seem like a smart thing to do. He went around the side of the house and came in through the kitchen door, hoping to find Hyacinth. He got his hands and shirt pretty well sticky doing so, and pasted a pale green stain on the door.
Hyacinth was not in the kitchen. He drew in a breath and opened his mouth to yell for her, then thought better of it.
Still carrying the box, leaving a trail of green droplets and occasional footprints on the tile floor, he investigated the front room, then had a look in the basement, just from the top of the stairs.
Rather at a loss, and beginning to feel the first inklings of panic, he stumbled into the front room proper and noted that the attic stairs were down.
He put one foot on one of Barnabyâs stairs before he decided that wasnât a good idea either.
He stood at the bottom for a few moments, uncomfortably near Ann and Miloâs door, dripping melted ice cream like the advancing second hand of a stopwatch, before he chose the lesser evil and called up the stairs, âUh, Auntie Hyacinth? The man gave me the box and ran away!â
He winced. There were surely some better words for what he wanted to get across than thoseâŠ
Hyacinthâs voice drifted down from the space above, âIs the box ticking, Erik?â
Erik frowned at it. âNo! Dripping!â
The unmistakable sound of Barnabyâs laughter accompanied Hyacinth down the rickety stairs. She got about halfway before sizing up the situation â small green child with dripping box, sheepish expression, stained clothes and shoe prints behind him â and she produced an irritated click of her tongue. âWhat is that? Is it paint?â
Erik shook his head. âIce⊠cream.â He shifted his sticky hands. âSorta.â
âOh, for godsâ sakes⊠Is there anything left of it?â
âHalf?â was Erikâs estimation by feel.
âPut it in the cold box in the basement next to the ice. Maybe Milo or your uncle can do something to save it later. Did you bring it in through the front or the back?â
âBack.â
Hyacinth growled and began tramping her way down the sweeping staircase to the kitchen. âIâll see about cleaning it up. What kind of an idiot brings melted ice cream? I donât have ice cream up on the board!â
Erik couldâve made the attempt to enlighten her, but it was hard to do words quickly with Hyacinth ticked off like that, and whatever was left of the ice cream needed to get cold fast if they were going to try to save it. He wanted to try some later, if they could get it somewhat ice-cream-shaped. He walked down the stairs behind her and made for the basement.
âââ
It was probably Cousin Violet, because of the ice cream. Violet liked to make things happen.
Erik was kneeling and holding the box against him with an arm, while holding up the lid of the cold box, and when whoever-it-was told him the origin of the funny paint man, Erik dropped the ice cream.
It went everywhere. On the ice. On milk bottles and boxed butter. On carrots and potatoes. On a paper-wrapped packet of sliced ham for sandwiches, which was expensive, and a hunk of leftover almost-meatloaf, which was not. On the stone interior of the box and the dirt floor inside. Even some on the wooden lid. Some on Erik, too, though he was already spattered.
He didnât see it.
He sawâŠ
Two boys. Erik thought men, but they thought of each other as boys. One was pale with light-brown hair, the other one reddish brown with black hair, and big, dark eyes. They were talking. Just screwinâ around. Just shootinâ the shit. You know. Nothing better to do.
Laughing.
âHey, will you look at that dumb kid?â someone said. The brown boy with the dark eyes wasnât sure which one of them. Maybe not even one of them. Maybe just someone walking past.
âHeâs gonna get killed.â That was the light boy. Ed. Still smiling. It had only been a moment and there was no cause to stop smiling.
There was a green kid, a little kid, still in short pants and stockings, shyly approaching a fenced-in pen in a dirt lot with some horses. Everyone knew freaky weird coloured people were supposed to stay away from horses and dogs, especially the coloured people themselves. But here was this stupid little kid, all alone, walking right up to some.
All was chaos. The darker boy wanted to cry out. Except, he didnât want to cry out. He wanted himself to want to cry out, but he hadnât. Not even wanted it. Maybe there wasnât time. Maybe heâd had his mouth open and been about to. Hey! Just a single syllable. Something. But he didnât remember that.
He wanted to cry out, but he hadnât wanted to cry out, and he didnât cry out, he didnât even open his mouth, and no one and no thing stopped the stupid little green kid from getting right up next to the horses in the pen.
There was⊠screaming. The horses. Maybe the green kid. And the darker boy still didnât open his mouth. No, Oh, my gods! Or, Stop him! Or, Get the police! Not even a gasp.
Horses, rickety wood fence that kept them under control by mere habit, stupid little green kid, panic, arms flung upwards and hooves flying. Just an instant. Then, three horses with broken bridles running away and some people yelling about the horses, running after the horses, and this stupid little green kid crumpled up like a pile of bloody clothes in the cobbled street.
Call an ambulance! A loud cry. A decisive action. Something.
âGods,â said the darker boy. Very soft. Nothing about an ambulance.
The bundle of stained clothing â of child â in the street did not move.
âYou think itâs dead?â Ed asked him.
It. And the dark boy didnât have anything to say about that either. âI dunno.â
They walked over. Walked. Somehow they were permitted to walk. No one else was running. The running had gone off in the direction of the horses.
The kid had a red face and a puddle of blood under his head. One eye was half-open but glazed and unseeing. The other was turned against the street. So much blood. It was impossible to tell the extent of the injury, but there was so much blood. It was like a car accident.
It was like a dog, that was what the dark boy was thinking. Like a dog that got hit by a car. Crushed under the wheels. Matted and red.
He nudged the green kidâs leg with the side of his shoe. He had done that. He started it.
He didnât want to touch⊠that thing. That bloody, maybe-dead thing. He didnât want to kneel down and get the blood on his clothes. His mom would be pissed.
It was dirty.
(But thatâs me, Erik thought. That thing thatâs so disgusting you donât want to touch it or get near it â thatâs me!)
It was like a dog in another way too. You didnât want to screw around with a hurt dog, because it might bite you. Coloured people, even the kids, could do magic. What if it⊠he⊠what if he woke up and did something?
Ed spoke, âHey, kid, are you dead?â
The dark boy breathed a fluttery little laugh. He toed at the kidâs leg again, well away from the mess of blood at the head. âHeâs not dead. Wake up.â He leaned in a little closer but still did not kneel down, and he raised his voice, âCome on, kid. Wake up!â
Ed nudged the other side of him, also with his shoe. There was no response. Ed looked up with a wide, hysterical, perfectly horrible grin, and then down again, âCome on, kid! Quit foolinâ around!â
âLazy!â the dark boy said. And he had kicked⊠Oh, yeah. He could kid himself about the first couple of times, but now there was definitely kicking going on. He had kicked the kid in the leg and it was like kicking over a piece of driftwood on the beach. He almost expected to hear clattering. But it had sounded, if it had sounded like anything, sort of soft. Like dropping a pillow.
Not like a dead human being. Not like that.
Ed laughed. âCrazy magician thought heâd take a nap in the middle of the street!â
âHey, kid, wake up and go home!â
Oh, please, gods, wake up and go home.
And⊠it had been so fast. Like the horses. Except worse than the horses, because horses are dumb animals and they donât need excuses.
They had been kicking him, and laughing. Not even words anymore, just two boys laughing. And this probably-dead kid that wouldnât get up. And nobody said âstop.â Nobody said, âwhat the hell are you doing?â or âWe have to get this kid to a hospital!â Nobody said anything, least of all the two boys.
And he was pretty sure, oh, yeah, he was pretty sure that when one of his blows knocked the dead kid in the side, something in there had snapped, but that didnât stop him. Nobody was going to stop them, least of all the dead kid.
And when finally, finally, there was a scream, and an extremely angry coloured man with a large, dark object approaching at all speed, the world had exploded in light.
And there was pain.
And something like relief.
Erik issued a low, wounded moan â like maybe he wouldâve made after the horses, if heâd been capable of making any noises after the horses â and scrabbled backwards until his back hit the wall under the worktable. He had a vague recollection of Milo doing that. It was safe, like the small spaces in the bombed out buildings during the siege.
He wasnât sure whose memories he was running on or what pieces of his mind were his own, but he wanted very badly to be safe.
He was wondering â a small, confused part of him was wondering â if he needed to be sorry.
No, I⊠I didnât do that, did I? Iâm not bad like that, am I?
He was crying, but very softly.
Is it me? Or did it happen to me?
Can I still have crayons?
Thereâs only one way in, I can see it. Itâs okay. Itâs okay.
Straitjacket.
No. There arenât any bathtubs in this house.
Itâs okay. No one knows Iâm here. I can see the only way in. Stairs. Itâs good if thereâs stairs, because of the gas. I think⊠I donât know if the stairs should go up or down, but I think it doesnât matter. Itâs okay.
If I have to get out, I can break the window. If I have to get outâŠ
He pulled his hand back into his shirtsleeve and bundled the cuff in his hand.
There. Like that. Itâs okay. I want to go home. I donât want to go home. I donât ever want to go back there. Why did he have to sell the damn house? It was my house too! Oh, please, make it stop. Ann, I want to be in the closetâŠ
No, Milo hurts himself in the closet.
Iâm not Milo.
âŠErik. Iâm Erik and Iâm in the basement and Iâm crying and Iâm hurt.
I need help.
But it was still a little while before he could make himself come away from the worktable and the wall where it was safe like in the bombed out buildings during the siege.
âââ
Hyacinth was on her hands and knees in the kitchen, mopping up stains with an old towel and a bucket of soapy water. When Erik came in, she said, âHoly shit, did you take a bath in that stuff?â but that was just her mouth running on autopilot.
âIâm sorry, I donât care, itâs okay,â she added without pause. She was beside him, she was already on her knees, and she gathered him into her arms. âHoney, what happened? Can you tell me what happened? Please try.â
âUnh,â was all that came out of him. Guttural, like she had punched him. His arms went around her neck and he clung, but that was all.
âOkay, weâre gonna go get your uncle. Thatâs okay.â She tried to pick him up, but he was just on the very edge of the weight she could manage to carry and it was difficult.
âMovie theatre carpet,â Erik said thickly.
âYeah,â said Hyacinth, doubly sure that someone who knew his way around gods and emotional trauma was necessary for this situation. She tried to go faster.
But what sounded incoherent was actually improvement. Erik was reorienting himself with reality, like when Barnaby tried to get his plot points straight.
My uncle said he feels like heâs been licking a movie theatre carpet. Heâs going to go back and play the wedding because they liked him. Annâs friends are getting married. Time and tips.
âDooonât,â Erik whined. He squirmed and she had to let him down. The dining room floor was carpeted, but he was able to stand. âHeâll be⊠worried,â Erik said.
âErik, Iâm worried!â said Hyacinth.
âIt hurt,â he said. He shivered and she put her arms around him again. He was willing to allow that. It was hard for him to put the rest of it together, but she was quiet and let him. âWhy⊠didnât⊠you⊠say⊠the⊠paint⊠man⊠hurt⊠me?â
âErik, IâŠâ
âNuh!â He cut a hand at her. He wasnât through with it! âWhy⊠did⊠you⊠let⊠them⊠tell⊠me⊠and⊠hurt⊠me⊠more?â Now he was done, and he was crying again. Not soft anymore, but he buried the sobs against her shoulder, so his uncle wouldnât hear and come.
âI was kind of hoping they wouldnât tell you,â Hyacinth said softly.
âThey⊠wait⊠until⊠itâs⊠funny,â Erik said.
âTheyâre assholes!â she cried.
âYes,â he said.
She just held him. There really wasnât much she could do about a bunch of invisible people being assholes, except try to clean up after it.
âThe man who brought the paint brought us a box of melted ice cream?â she asked him, just making certain.
He nodded.
âAnd they told you about him just now when you were in the basement?â
âUh-huh.â He drew back and looked at her miserably. âI spilled⊠everything.â
âYeah, I donât care. Iâll get to it. Weâre doing this other thing now.â
He nodded.
âYou want to sit in the kitchen or the big chairs in the front room?â
âKitchen.â
She put her hand on his back and walked him towards the table. âCoffee, tea or chocolate?â
âTea.â
You poor kid, she thought. Erik only favoured tea when he was sick. She lit the stove and put on some water. âWait until thereâs tea or talk now?â
âNow.â
âOkay.â She sat down beside him at the table. âI know what he did, and I know you know, and you know I know. We donât have to talk about that part unless you want to. You want to?â
Erik shook his head.
âOkay. Then you pick something and talk first. Iâll wait.â
âWhyâŠâ said Erik, but he shook his head. He knew why the paint man was being nice to them. He was being nice because he felt so sorry and so guilty he wanted to go back in time and strangle himself. That wasnât the way to say it. âWhy⊠are you⊠letting him be⊠nice⊠to us?â
âHe lied to the police, so your uncle wouldnât get in trouble about blowing up Julia and hurting him. He said if there was anything else we needed we should ask him, and he found paint. And he helped me find that violin.â
âAngie?â Erik said, blinking.
âYeah. For godsâ sakes, do not tell your uncle about that. Your uncle hasnât seen him and he has no idea. The gods didnât tell you any of this stuff?â
Erik shook his head.
âI guess it was halfway nice, so they didnât bother, huh?â
âYeah.â
âAfter the violin, he wanted to know if he was upsetting you, and he wasnât right then, so I said no. Then he wanted to know if he ought to come back here. I said that was up to him, but to stay the hell away from your uncle. Iâm guessing thatâs why he hung around outside until the ice cream melted. He is not the sharpest spoon in the drawer.â
âSpoon?â said Erik.
âI mean, he is very, very dumb. Not like he needs a minder, but he could use one. Do you want me to go find him and tell him not to come back? I can do that today if you want.â
Right away, Erik shook his head, but he sighed. âHard. Need to think.â
âSure thing. Iâll do the tea.â
Erik was very glad they didnât have a tea kettle with a whistle, like in the cartoons. He didnât think heâd be able to take it. Even the clinking noise of Hyacinth mixing honey into his cup was a little much, but he did like honey and he didnât want to tell her to quit. It only went on for a little.
He accepted the cup in both hands and sipped it. His coffee mug, which also served for tea and chocolate, had a mermaid with a moustache on it. He wasnât sure if he found that comforting or annoying.
Could everything please stop being ridiculous for a while? he thought. Iâm not a happy person and Iâd like reality to get with the program.
There should definitely be more greys. Everything should grey. And no more minty-green ice cream stains all over everything, including him. It was way too cheerful, and it reminded him how scared heâd been.
Damn it, why couldnât it just be one of those things or the other?
Look, Iâm gonna draw a line, okay? Everything cute and funny can be on this side, and everything scary and hurtful can be over here. Stop mixing them!
The moustachioed mermaid beamed at him. Greetings from San Rosille!
He breathed a soft helpless laugh and set the mug on the table. âI want to⊠see him,â he said. âAnd I want to⊠talk to him. But I⊠donât want to⊠wait for him to⊠show up. Iâd be scared. Like⊠like a Jack-in-the-box.â
Hyacinth nodded.
âIs that okay?â he asked her.
âSure itâs okay. I can ask him over⊠I donât think we should have him at the house, but we can pick a day.â
âCould I go⊠see him?â He put up both hands, to prevent Hyacinth from cutting off his thought. âI think Iâd like to see⊠he has a house. Like a⊠a real person.â He sighed. âIt sounds⊠stupid.â
âNo, it doesnât,â said Hyacinth, frowning. âBut it is going to be more difficult. We have to come up with something where you and I go out together, but your uncle doesnât. Not because heâs worried or interested. Movies and the library are right out.â
âNot⊠tomorrow,â Erik said. âHeâll be⊠in bed.â
âYou wanna do this tomorrow?â On the one hand, it sounded masochistic. On the other, maybe it was like ripping off a bandage.
Erik shrugged, then nodded.
âHell, all right,â said Hyacinth. âThere anything else you want? Liquor?â She bit down on her tongue to prevent it from offering cigarettes. He might actually say yes to those.
Erik spread his arms and looked both hopeful and pathetic. âClean clothes?â
They told his uncle, and everybody else, that theyâd spilled a bottle of milk.
âââ
Uncle Mordecai noticed him being too sad and quiet at dinner, of course. He pulled Erik aside in the dining room and told him, âDear one, I donât have to go tonight. Ann will understand.â
Erik, once again, looked visibly relieved. But his uncle wouldnât know why, or any other context for it. He made a smile and shook his head. âNo, Iâm not worried about that. I really want you to go. Iâm just thinking about⊠stuff.â
âLike what kind of stuff?â
âChronic hunger in a world of plenty.â And when he saw his uncleâs expression he knew someone had fed him that answer to be upsetting. He shook his head. âNo. I⊠donâtâŠâ
âTheyâre not talking to you about that, are they?â said Mordecai, stricken.
Erik was still shaking his head. âNo⊠just⊠teasing⊠me.â He spat the word.
âDo they do that a lot?â Mordecai asked softly.
âSometimes⊠a lot,â Erik said. âNot⊠a lot⊠a lot,â he added, trying to mitigate it.
âI donât want to go,â said Mordecai. He sighed. âBut I donât know what Iâm going to do about it if I stay. Do you want to talk about it? Or anything else?â
Erik smiled at him. He slowed down a little, just to sell it, âI want you to go make lots of money so we can go to⊠Papillon Island and ride the⊠rollercoaster.â
I want you to drink a lot of champagne so Hyacinth and I can get everything sorted out without worrying you more, he thought guiltily, still smiling.
Mordecai did not feel entirely secure in that smile. âErik⊠There isnât anything you feel like you canât tell me, is there?â
Frowning, Erik shook his head. No. I know it doesnât work that way. You can tell anyone anything anytime you want. But there are some things you shouldnât.
Mordecai believed the frown. More so than the smile, anyway. He allowed Erik back to the table for dessert. And, fifteen minutes later, somewhat better-arranged, he departed with Ann and violin in tow.
And not much more guilt and concern than usual.
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On the edge of sleep, Erik heard a familiar voice. Not a cruel one, but he flinched anyway. He was so tired of talking. Hyacinth had asked him if he wanted to talk more before she put him to bed too.
Erik, Cousin Violet is no longer in this house. I donât know how long I can keep her away, but she knows I donât approve of what she did.
Thank you, Hester. Iâm tired now. Can I sleep?
Of course, dear. Good dreams.
He didnât remember any.
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Sometime later, his uncle woke him. Either dropping the violin case or falling into bed. He wasnât sure.
There was faint laughter and then he sang, âGood morning, StarshineâŠâ
âShh, Em. Heâs sleeping.â That was Ann.
Erik kept still so they wouldnât try to talk to him.
âSing me the chorus again, Ann,â Mordecai said. âI can never rememberâŠâ
âTomorrow, dear.â
âItâs not even words,â he complained.
âI know, dear. I am sorry. Do try and sleep.â
âGoodnight, Alba.â
âGoodnight, dear.â
Erik pulled a pillow over his ear so he didnât have to hear his uncle humming. We are go for the paint man tomorrow, he thought. He went back to sleep.